Darkness Meditation Course

The Darkness Meditation Course invites you to step away from the collective rhythm of modern Western culture, a relentless hum that drives us to do, to achieve, to perform. It is a culture of constant striving—one where rest feels indulgent and stillness, almost impossible. In this space, where our identities are intertwined with productivity, the idea of simply being can feel like stepping into an unknown, unlit void.

This course isn’t designed to be comfortable or easy. A darkness retreat, even for just one hour a day, is not a peak experience. It’s not an escape or a moment of glory. It is raw, exposing, and deeply intimate. It brings you face-to-face with what already exists within you—the parts of yourself you’ve been managing, covering, or avoiding for years.

When I spent 90 days in the dark, the first few days were profoundly uncomfortable. My body rebelled, my mind raced, and I felt the full weight of my resistance. That resistance wasn’t just to the darkness—it was to what is. All the subtle ways I had been managing my experience—seeking significance, insulating myself from discomfort, and distracting myself with constant activity—came rushing to the surface.

In darkness, there is nowhere to hide. The compulsion to fix, improve, or achieve something—even in your own spiritual practice—falls away. What remains is simple honesty: the ability to sit with what is naturally and spontaneously happening in your body and mind, no matter how uncomfortable or ordinary it may seem.

This practice is not about striving for transformation or chasing an elevated state of being. It is about dismantling the layers of self-deception that keep us tethered to the dream of a “better” self. It is about feeling the rawness of lack, the resistance we carry, and the sensations we’ve buried beneath years of conditioning.

What emerges is not grand or dramatic—it is profoundly simple. A slow, fundamental shift occurs as you allow yourself to truly see, feel, and experience what is present, without the compulsion to change or control it. It is a return to awareness. Vulnerable. Intimate. Exposed. And ultimately, brand new.

The path through darkness is challenging, more so than you might imagine. It demands honesty, patience, and the willingness to confront the parts of yourself you’ve been avoiding. But in that stillness, when you stop running and simply are, you may find something extraordinary waiting—a quiet, steady connection to the deepest truths of your being.